The Mask

Birds of the same feather flock together
Yet sometimes bats try to mingle,for they
also want to receive the appreciation given
to the birds, that fly in the sky.

even though sometimes, you don't want to wear a mask, you need to,Why? may you ask.
From my opinion people will not accept you for who you are they may accept you eventually but not immediately.. So, In order for you to survive within the harsh world that is built only for the fit, powerful and blessed. one must wear a mask at all times in order to protect oneself from the reality of life.

I am proud to say that, I am now able to wear different masks for certain people, in order to be accepted and respected. but I am so thankful that even with the masks I wear,the close ones that I cherish the most are able to see right through it.. with that I know that even with the ones I wear they are still able to accept me. that is why it always pains me to know, that even with the traits that I possess because of my position in life and the few things that I can offer it is still hard to show my real self, not just because I want to be wanted, but also because it's one of the things I need to do to keep my pride and dignity at bay.

..words of my depression..

(had a fun evening with my best again and close friend shalimar. Damn toothache almost ruined my evening)

bats are almost the same as birds yet some people have never manage to accept their beauty unlike the birds who've had the privilege of being born with beauty and the acceptance because of their position and benefit in life.

Fun time with my Best

Body aches! stomach so full, can't eat another bite, until an hour of course. All of a sudden I just wanted to thank my best for still being herself and not changing for the past years. again I've noticed the unfairness of life maybe just a bit. due to my best's experiences, I've noticed that with all the care that she gives, she only receives half or sometimes none at all. My best as shown in the picture, is the utter opposite of me, being able to withstand hard trials, and not fall, rise against her rivals and of course usually achieves her goals. I am utterly proud of her cause she has managed to prove to many that even though they doubt and belittle her she is an utter wonder woman! She is also one of the people I look up to, a while ago while we were at the gym she suddenly had the urge to go eat dinner out at a nice pares house with me and her husband(pares there is one of the best! rice is utterly in a bowl not cup,almost could not finish my second bowl but I did it)so as usual I scolded her cause she is currently on a diet,but after her excuse I was defeated and the excuse was one of her simple pleasures in life is seeing her beloved husband eat and enjoy food..(haiz kilig moment hahaha..)Like I said a while ago my best has always been kind and loving and that's why I always love being around her. by the way shes been giving me the best summer vacation right now, dragging me to museums, events(God even makeup sessions) and showing me new foods that I very much!!! like. that is why sometimes, even with the unfairness of life I still manage to survive, because of people who show me that Life even though unfair is worth living

May 14, 2011

couldn't sleep kept thingking how the hell did our electric bill kick up to 5k we don't even own a freaking aircon so tried the M.A.C. of meralco and even though it was unbelievable couldn't expect that the computer had high amount if used for 10 hours a day so from now on less T.V. and less P.C. usage..

another thing while I was checking my facebook account I encountered a Blogpost which shocked me didn't expect that sitting could be so dangerous read it here http://andrewsullivan.thedailybeast.com/2011/05/sitting-is-deadly.html

and for my unfairness quote

woe to the "first offspring's", from the "first", for they could not bring satisfaction to the great "provider". woe to them for they could not defend themselves from the bribes of the "second", For even though they are superior in age, they are not superior to the "provider".woe to the "first" for she suffers each day for her sacrifice, just to make sure the "provider" is Happy, her martyrdom seen, when she allowed the "second" to replace her in other means, Woe to her for she also does some chores for the "second", woe to the "first born" of the "first" for he has no strength to rise, for he was not raised to battle against the "provider".Cry O offspring's of the first, for when the "second offspring's" have returned to their home the wrath and punishment of the "provider" will befall all of you, for your deeds and the deeds of the "second offspring's", you will accept them all.yet stay strong for the "first" endured everything for you and as her children you must show that you too can endure it like she has.