Major Chakras

Just finished reading the cleansing chakra book. Been following the instructions for a week and I'm really having positive vibes. I'll be posting the instrucions on my other blog that's linked on the top since this is actually my personal blog. ahehehe hope this would actually help others as it help me.

Inside the world of women

November 29 2011 another event with my Bestfriend, today we went on a bloggers meet model stuff thing that was launched by a known cosmetics company and again as my friends personal photographer I get to tag along, when we arrive on the place the first thing that came into my mind was "God the place is so pink!" the decor the stuff almost everything was pink totally for girls. Luckily My best manage to have our close friend tag along which was also a girl to come with us, So I felt a bit confident cause there was more of us. and so again I managed to hone my photography skills since I'm still practicing. after that we enjoyed strolling along the Fort since the event was held there so again I lavished at the Ooh so extravagant place and really appreciated at how clean the place was. and since my bestfriend is a make up fanatic she managed to find out the schedule of the product launch and again as the always reliable sidekick hehehehe I will be there again. I really enjoy how my Best tags me along to these events makes me socialize more with people, which I do not so often do, plus, I get to collect some info on stuff hehehe knowledge is power as they say!

Feeling so Doomed yet so Strong!

Recently I've been rejected again due to a certain condition yet I did not feel that bad like the usual me. maybe I have been improving my self esteem hahahaha I took these pictures when I really felt good about myself and to see the hard work that Ive earned from going to the gym I really consider gaining a bit a real achievement specially since Ive been so thin since highschool!

for that I really enjoy listening to this song right now! and I really feel like liberating myself right now! so I attached some of my pictures of me that I think show how good I feel about myself hahahaha

and of course listening to this song of skillet shows what I feel right now!! hahaha

Lyrics-Dead Inside

V1
To find this love of mine
Id walk through wind and fire
Forever and always

These hollow hands reach out
For you to touch me now
Forever and always

Chorus
Dead inside
My heart and soul flatlines
Put your mouth on mine
And bring me back to life
Dead inside
No other satisfies
My blood runs dry
Take my life
Save me from this death inside

V2
I cant escape this love
I want it the way it was
Forever and always
Dont you leave me here
Alone in all this fear
Forever and always

Bridge
I cant escape this love
I want it the way it was
You remind me of a time
When I felt alive

a Productive month

Hmmm been quite busy lately haven't had much time to slack off hahahaha been very thankful though. It started when my bestfriend decided to go back to the gym of course I as the all around friend must be there to assist her in her everlasting quest gahahahaha anyway it wasn't all a waste she manage to lose some pounds. after that certain Gym schedule all week suddenly had events I had to go here had to go there and had to go everywhere It was a bit hard specially on the working part But I'm very thankful manage to get free Buffet Food hahahaha one of my fave schedules was when I helped my sister on her school parade ahahaha atlesast I felt being an older brother again and experience going back to school and thanks to a request I manage to get my bestfriend to Tag along I also enjoyed making the costume even though I just used some old materials ever so thankful for my Best's skills in makeup allowing my sister to look her part!

I Must Pull Myself Together

Again feeling so Low yet trying to pull myself together, for some reason the past is repeating itself unto me, the first depression that I've felt like this cause me to fall so low unto darkness that I'm currently fearing this! but the pain is not as like it was before I just hope I survive this one as well! this song from skillet is really in my mood right now. It's really helpful listening to this song right now.

V1
if I wasnt here tomorrow would anybody care
if my time was up Id wanna know
You were happy I was there

if I wasnt here tomorrow would anyone lose sleep
if I wasnt hard and hollow
Then maybe you would miss me

Pre
I know Im a mess and I wanna be someone
Someone that Id like better
I can never forget, so dont remind me of it forever

Chorus
What if I just pulled myself together
Would it matter at all
What if I just tried not to remember
Would it matter at all
All the chances that have passed me by
Would it matter if I gave it one more try
Would it matter at all

V2
if I wasnt here tomorrow would anybody care
Still stuck inside this sorrow
I got nothin and going nowhere

Post bridge
I know Im a mess and I wanna be someone
Someone that Id like better
Can you help me forget, dont wanna feel like this forever

Outro
If I left tomorrow would anybody care
Stuck in this sorrow
Going nowhere

Lord please do help me!

Eat all you can

Just last Wednesday I went with my best friend to assist her in an Errand after finishing the job It just so happens that there was an eat all you can buffet in front of us, so ironically even with my best strict diet (hehehe I'm evil)she was forced to join me for an all you can eat buffet. I've always like "eat all you can" you get the satisfaction of eating as much as you want(of course you still need to be careful of stomach problems). Things like this really makes me feel satisfied in life knowing how great and wonderful it is to live.

I really Like the mini potato salad that they offered(I thought they were quail eggs hahaha) forgot to take a picture of it though but anyway the spaghetti tastes OK not that sweet but leaves an enjoyable after taste plus you can add additional Parmesan cheese,the mushroom soup was great really creamy! and the pizza that they offered was thin crust so I sufficed my craving for pizza with chili sauce and salt ^_^, I think the restaurants name was chef Angelos @ magallanes I forgot the name of the mall the buffet actually has a schedule forgot it again(I really should remembers these things hehehe),If you like a mixed of pizza, pasta, and soup you can try it for the amount of P150 it's not really a bad deal.

Anime Cosplay

I have always enjoyed watching anime since I was a child and in my current age I still do, but of course now there are certain types of Anime that I like to watch, for some reason I became a bit choosy with the storyline,animation and of course what it was about. I have always been envious of people who have manage to actually Cosplay anime characters, I'm amazed with their interest of actually portraying certain characters that they like and I applaud their courage doing it in anime/game events, Seeing them enjoying what they're doing and not actually minding haters really impresses me.

and recently thanks to my oh! so very active best friend I have manage to take pictures together with a certain number of cosplayers and for me it was really fun, I regret being all shy cause it didn't allow me to pose properly with them, OH well maybe next time I'll be able to actually Cosplay as one of my favorite anime characters!(still hoping though).

Suicide Myths and Facts

I found another very useful Info from the book that I read.

picture taken from http://images.bookbyte.com

Myths and Facts about Suicide (my simplified version)

myth people who talk about suicide don't commit suicide.wrong
fact it's actually a cry for help from that person that most people misunderstand as a joke and consider it as one.

myth improvement in a suicidal person means the risk of suicide has passed.
fact improvement is sometimes a sign that a person is preparing the attempt.

myth Once a suicide risk always a suicide risk.
fact people who encounter suicide and survive or is intervened usually put the thought aside.

myth suicide is inherited.
fact It is not genetic (as if),It can occur to any family.

myth Suicide affects a certain class of people.
fact It can happen to anyone.

myth suicidal individuals are insane.
fact this is a bit true, In some cases, But suicide is done with careful reasoning and deliberate judgment as the book said.

myth suicidal individuals are fully intent on dying.
fact most suicide cases are undecided whether they want to live or die.

myth the motive for a particular suicide is clearly evident
fact one problem is not enough it takes a lot of them to trigger a suicide and it usually develops over time through a certain pattern.

another cute trivia did you know that alcoholism can be considered as slow suicide since it is a pattern to one's own self destruction.

I got this info on the same book that I read The Last Dance Encountering Death and Dying fifth edition Lynne Ann DeSpelder Albert lee Strickland.

Oh! by the way I considered in posting this, since I also recently saw some news regarding this subject. It's a bit of information so just to add a little bit of knowledge. Avoiding it one should know a bit about what causes it.

remember, careful what you say to others that might hurt, you may think your doing good but your not.just remember to remind them why you said that in the first place or better yet do it in a nice tone that you know would not hit that hard.

Suicide

I have been Itching in Bringing this certain subject for the past months, due to some incidents that occurred here. Suicide so why do people do it at first i was having a hard time thinking to blog this or not but then all of a sudden my sister asked assistance for her report which dwell on the subject. So because of this I was able to study a little more about the subject considering the help of the book my sister borrowed from her school so here is a little bit of information of what I got from the book.

So first Question in my Mind people often state that a person who committed suicide can be considered Insane(I thought they were too) wrong.from what I understood, a person capable of suicide still has the ability to think and properly act the cause of one's death, wherein a person of Insanity, just does it accidentally so mainly a high level of people who commit suicide are in not the so Insane mode when they did it only problems is why they did it if they where?

So I go to my Second Question Why they Did it.The usual point of view towards people who commit suicide is that 1. they have problem that they cannot escape 2. they couldn't handle life anymore.So what did I find out. well I have manage to make a bit of my own conclusion base on the book. The first 2 conclusion are a bit correct but in a simplified manner, they are both simple to understand yet still pose more question the more simplified explanation for the cause is 1.loosing one's belief that he/she matters to the world 2. nothing in this world matters anymore. So it just really means that people who tend to commit suicide either finds themselves worthless or finds the world or life they are currently in as worthless. so mainly, one way to prevent this from actually happening to us is to be pro active as much as possible.

by the way the book that I have manage to read is Titled The Last Dance Encountering Death and Dying fifth edition Lynne Ann DeSpelder & Albert Lee Strickland

Comic Browsing

For the past years I've been fond of reading comic books and novels. I've enjoyed the entertainment they bring. The most exciting thing that I usually await is the release of Pinoy made comic's I love it when i see an artwork that is made by filipino with a twist of foreign art. it give's excitement to me whenever I see or read something that is related to the country and so for the past I have managed to read some interesting Pinoy made comics naming them would be Culture Crash,Neo Epics Comics, and the latest one that I have manage to read Trese. Though sometimes it pains me to see that some of these comics only stay for awhile unfinished,yet I am still happy to know that many filipino still enjoy the art of making comics I just wish that more Filipino would appreciate them, so that they can actually stay longer and have an ending. This thought suddenly came in to my mind when I saw an artwork that was made by a filipino but manage to infiltrate a japanese manga site Novus Karma by Kevin Libranda never expeted that this artwork was pinoy made because of the artwork though it had some downfall with some stuff but hey the guy sure is a talented person when it comes to his art I just hope that he gets more readers so that the comic can stay and end properly.

What will you do if wishes do come true

Did it ever happened that you wished for something so impossible that when it happened you never had the chance to actually grab it because you yourself believe that it was too good to be true.

Do the plank

People these days have managed to have weird ways of making trends for their own entertainment, it's weird cause it's out right
nonsense yet it can be both entertaining and funny at times(specially, when someone that you know actually did it). One certain example of the outrageous trends that I've just recently noticed is the so called "Planking". When I first heard about it from my brother, the first thing that came into my mind was the actual "Planking" exercise, wherein you hold your body in a push up like position and your elbow should actually support the whole of the body.

But of course my brother was'nt referring to this sort of "Planking", he was referring to the funny yet no sense planking, no sense because you just do it for no reason but to look awkwardly funny. When they started doing these so called Planking, I ended up saying "what your doing is pointless,you just look really stupid" (parang wala naman kakuwenta kuwenta yung ginagawa niyo,para lang kayong mga tanga), my brother then replied to me "thats the point of it, you need to look stupid, but you need to be in that position"(yun nga yun, dapat mukha kang tanga pero kailangan nakaganung position). after their so called planking photo session, I could'nt help but noticed the really funny outcome. Since a friend of mine was the actual person who did it I can't help but laugh for an hour.this is the plank that they manage to do as of now which really made me laugh.

how to detect lies

For the past weeks I've been experiencing a lot of stories from close people about certain people lying to them and them having troubles proving the lies or knowing if the person is actually lying so to shed a bit of light for them I kinda had the itch to browse online for this "how to detect lies here are some example's from the site

Body Language of Lies:
• Physical expression will be limited and stiff, with few arm and hand movements. Hand, arm and leg movement are toward their own body the liar takes up less space.

• A person who is lying to you will avoid making eye contact.

• Hands touching their face, throat & mouth. Touching or scratching the nose or behind their ear. Not likely to touch his chest/heart with an open hand.

Interactions and Reactions
• A guilty person gets defensive. An innocent person will often go on the offensive.

• A liar is uncomfortable facing his questioner/accuser and may turn his head or body away.

• A liar might unconsciously place objects (book, coffee cup, etc.) between themselves and you.

I got the information from this site http://www.blifaloo.com/info/lies.php soif ever you want to train yourselves in the art of catching liars better read up on this hahaha (I am so EVIL!)

one of the songs I'm currently addicted to right now

Tonight I'm so alone
This sorrow takes ahold
Don't leave me here so cold
(Never want to be so cold)

Your touch used to be so kind
Your touch used to give me life
I've waited all this time, I've wasted so much time

Don't leave me alone
Cause I barely see at all
Don't leave me alone, I'm

Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Dreaming of the way it used to be
Can you hear me
Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Falling inside the black
Falling inside falling inside the black

You were my source of strength
I've traded everything
That I love for this one thing
(Stranded in the offering)

Don't leave me here like this
Can't hear me scream from the abyss
And now i wish for you my desire

Don't leave me alone
Cause I barely see at all
Don't leave me alone, I'm

Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Dreaming of the way it used to be
Can you hear me
Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Falling inside the black
Falling inside falling inside the black
Black, black, black

Falling in the black...
Slipping through the cracks...

Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Dreaming of the way it used to be
Can you hear me
Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Falling inside the black
Can you hear me?
Falling inside the black
Can you hear me?
Falling inside the black
Can you hear me?
Falling inside
Falling inside, falling inside the black

Christian lyrics - FALLING INSIDE THE BLACK LYRICS - SKILLET

Karma

the law of karma states that what you do unto others will be done unto you, but did it occurred to your mind that if you don't take care of yourself it will just be the same

Book comment

Just finished reading "The Perks of being a wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky I really enjoyed reading this book because It read out like a diary of somebody, loved it because the main character Charlie always appreciated every single thing in his life,his family his friends and even the people that does not even connect to him that much even though he was suffering from some kind of psychological trauma because of the death of her beloved aunt Helen..I almost cried at some part because the story was so touching. it makes you feel not so lonely within this unfair world of ours..I saw how the world revolved around another persons point of view and made me feel special too. I heard they are actually making a movie about this I just hope that they do good and not change on how the story was told.. it made me want to know more about that person (Charlie) and am really happy for him because of how the story ended(sigh). Thanks to my best friend (Sophie)for letting me borrow this book of hers I must say she knows how to pick novels.. thanks best

Oh by the way since my digicam isnt working I took a picture of this book from google so as for others to know what the book cover looks like

The Mask

Birds of the same feather flock together
Yet sometimes bats try to mingle,for they
also want to receive the appreciation given
to the birds, that fly in the sky.

even though sometimes, you don't want to wear a mask, you need to,Why? may you ask.
From my opinion people will not accept you for who you are they may accept you eventually but not immediately.. So, In order for you to survive within the harsh world that is built only for the fit, powerful and blessed. one must wear a mask at all times in order to protect oneself from the reality of life.

I am proud to say that, I am now able to wear different masks for certain people, in order to be accepted and respected. but I am so thankful that even with the masks I wear,the close ones that I cherish the most are able to see right through it.. with that I know that even with the ones I wear they are still able to accept me. that is why it always pains me to know, that even with the traits that I possess because of my position in life and the few things that I can offer it is still hard to show my real self, not just because I want to be wanted, but also because it's one of the things I need to do to keep my pride and dignity at bay.

..words of my depression..

(had a fun evening with my best again and close friend shalimar. Damn toothache almost ruined my evening)

bats are almost the same as birds yet some people have never manage to accept their beauty unlike the birds who've had the privilege of being born with beauty and the acceptance because of their position and benefit in life.

Fun time with my Best

Body aches! stomach so full, can't eat another bite, until an hour of course. All of a sudden I just wanted to thank my best for still being herself and not changing for the past years. again I've noticed the unfairness of life maybe just a bit. due to my best's experiences, I've noticed that with all the care that she gives, she only receives half or sometimes none at all. My best as shown in the picture, is the utter opposite of me, being able to withstand hard trials, and not fall, rise against her rivals and of course usually achieves her goals. I am utterly proud of her cause she has managed to prove to many that even though they doubt and belittle her she is an utter wonder woman! She is also one of the people I look up to, a while ago while we were at the gym she suddenly had the urge to go eat dinner out at a nice pares house with me and her husband(pares there is one of the best! rice is utterly in a bowl not cup,almost could not finish my second bowl but I did it)so as usual I scolded her cause she is currently on a diet,but after her excuse I was defeated and the excuse was one of her simple pleasures in life is seeing her beloved husband eat and enjoy food..(haiz kilig moment hahaha..)Like I said a while ago my best has always been kind and loving and that's why I always love being around her. by the way shes been giving me the best summer vacation right now, dragging me to museums, events(God even makeup sessions) and showing me new foods that I very much!!! like. that is why sometimes, even with the unfairness of life I still manage to survive, because of people who show me that Life even though unfair is worth living

May 14, 2011

couldn't sleep kept thingking how the hell did our electric bill kick up to 5k we don't even own a freaking aircon so tried the M.A.C. of meralco and even though it was unbelievable couldn't expect that the computer had high amount if used for 10 hours a day so from now on less T.V. and less P.C. usage..

another thing while I was checking my facebook account I encountered a Blogpost which shocked me didn't expect that sitting could be so dangerous read it here http://andrewsullivan.thedailybeast.com/2011/05/sitting-is-deadly.html

and for my unfairness quote

woe to the "first offspring's", from the "first", for they could not bring satisfaction to the great "provider". woe to them for they could not defend themselves from the bribes of the "second", For even though they are superior in age, they are not superior to the "provider".woe to the "first" for she suffers each day for her sacrifice, just to make sure the "provider" is Happy, her martyrdom seen, when she allowed the "second" to replace her in other means, Woe to her for she also does some chores for the "second", woe to the "first born" of the "first" for he has no strength to rise, for he was not raised to battle against the "provider".Cry O offspring's of the first, for when the "second offspring's" have returned to their home the wrath and punishment of the "provider" will befall all of you, for your deeds and the deeds of the "second offspring's", you will accept them all.yet stay strong for the "first" endured everything for you and as her children you must show that you too can endure it like she has.

continuation of Lifes unfairnes

Centuries Later (weeks actually) GIRL finally tries to move on and of course manages to forgive BOY a bit, making them acquaintances. Since it was advisable that you forgive first so that you can forget, and for the fact that BOY is also within GIRLS circle of friends (Barkada). GIRL finally meets SIMPLE BOY who in turn manages to mend GIRL’s broken heart, their relationship was nourished for a long time and thus their love for one another grew and went to the point that they were actually planning to get married!

It was almost a happy ending not until BOY suddenly makes his appearance known again. during this time BOY actually has a new relationship, same as GIRL yet he still manages to think that he has the right and responsibility to interfere with GIRL’s decision. so being the talented suitor that he is BOY manages to get GIRL’s attention, AGAIN! while FRIEND’s not knowing of this action, did not manage to stop the rekindling bond of BOY and GIRL. But SIMPLE BOY being the very intelligent person that he is senses this immediately and tries to confront GIRL to tell the truth, he even asks advice and support from GIRL’s FRIEND’s which in turn makes FRIEND’s notice the certain change and catches GIRL on the act, since being the good FRIEND’s that they are they try to point out every possible flaw that her action has. Yet GIRL could not absorb a thing they say. And so thus blooms BOY and GIRL’s rekindled Love for one another leaving SIMPLE BOY to deal with this bitter unfaithfulness, trying effortlessly to make their relationship work yet to no prevail…..this is really irritating! Anyway after 2 gruesome months of martyrdom, SIMPLE BOY finally surrenders to his faith and having the ability to know where GIRL is whenever she make’s an alibi ( GIRL was also quite a skillful liar yet SIMPLE BOY could see through it) SIMPLE BOY finally gathers up the courage to confront GIRL, of course with assistance from GIRL’s FRIEND’s as to show to them that he was not mistaking on his accusations. So SIMPLE BOY catches GIRL and BOY together in a sweet romantic moment. So thus causes an argument between SIMPLE BOY and GIRL, while on the other side BOY is being calmed by their FRIEND’s as so not to attack SIMPLE BOY ( because he thinks he has the right to beat the crap out of SIMPLE BOY since he caught both of them on the act) So thus GIRL tries to explain herself and realizes her mistake, yet SIMPLE BOY has already been hit hard not as hard as her but still painful.

So upon surrendering to the faiths an accepting his defeat SIMPLE BOY breaks up with GIRL releasing her from all the bonds of their relationship, FRIEND’s try to talk to SIMPLE BOY to reconsider his decision. yet SIMPLE BOY points out every detail that he knew caused the downfall of their relationship. So to point out some of this here they are in an orderly manner.

Basing on the physique BOY is well fit of course being the sporty type of guy that he is Simple guy is a bit slim not that slim but the gym beginner type slim (he was trying to add a little weight since GIRL advised him to eat more)

SIMPLE BOY derived from his name is quite simple not handsome yet not badlooking at all while BOY on the other hand is what we can state as model like being the handsome and goodlooking the type that girls call “makalaglag panty” What a word.

BOY is the cool macho type of guy being included to a well known PRAT enjoying his life to the fullest like travelling abroad and partying has his own business courtesy of his wealthy parents, had graduated with a 4 year course from a well known school and has his own car, SIMPLE GUY on the other hand is the typical kind of guy being addicted to Anime, video games and enjoys the simple perks of life has manage to graduate with a 4 year course thanks to the hardship of his mom and relative’s abroad has a simple business( he managed to franchise a food cart from his earned salary) and is currently working for a very nice company which I cant mention in respect to him( I can’t mention the name of the company and work type since he will obviously read this I manage to somewhat be acquainted with him even though I’m included in GIRL’s circle of FRIEND’s ) peace friend hehehehe.

So with that said, after being drunk obviously. GIRL’s FRIEND’s surrender to SIMPLE BOY’s request to just let it be, during that time It made me think, what caused his surrender? was it because he knew he was no match for the enemy or was it simply because he knew that BOY was better for Girl (just a reminder SIMPLE BOY did not know that BOY had another relationship he thought that BOY simply wanted GIRL back).

So we go back to the oh so vulnerable GIRL just as you know BOY promised to break up with CURRENT RELATIONSHIP, as to manage to gain GIRL’s trust and favor, and so GIRL agrees to their so called secret relationship, but in the end GIRL again becomes the victim of her so very trustful decision.

Not long after she hears from someone within the family that BOY is being engage to CURRENT RELATIONSHIP! legally of course or to explain it BOY and CURRENT RELATIONSHIP’s parents were introduced formally(Namanhikan in our language I don’t know it’s English counterpart sorry anyway) again GIRL’s world crumbled apart to the point that she wanted to commit suicide, but with the help of the ever loving FRIEND’s that she has she surpasses this thought and realizes that she again can survive this one as she did last time. with this in mind she again severs their entwined relationship, or so she thought it as simple as that not until she found out that she was pregnant.( to hell with this news) so with this sudden event GIRL’s world is put to a pause ( I think she thought of suicide again but then reconsidered since she realized that she’ll be committing 2 unforgivable sins)

So upon learning of her condition GIRL swallows her pride and confronts BOY to take responsibility upon their action(I said their instead of his since GIRL also knows that this is also her mistake) Yet BOY being the Alpha male that he is, suddenly loses his fangs, but still has the courage to say to GIRL not to cause any trouble specially now that he is formally engaged, he also promised that he will eventually think of a way to make this work but not at the current moment( I wonder why some rich kids find it so hard to accept this mistake yet poor kids courageously steps up to face this challenge I repeat I said some not all) So with this said GIRL faces the most devastating challenge in her life.

surprisingly with her pride already swallowed and her will diminishing she does something that only few have done first she admits her mistake to her Mother and asks for forgiveness of course her mother being the all so caring and lovable person that she is just cries with disappointment at the fate of her child having no choice but to support and help her beloved GIRL.

And the second courageous act that she does ( and I mean courageous cause hell I was petrified when I learned about this and to the fact that she was alone) she went to BOY’s house and talked with BOY’s parents, of course BOY not being there, but to no avail did not manage to win their favor, so thus leaves her to raise the child with her Mom and with the support of her FRIEND’s. BOY on the other continues he’s adventures and enjoyment of life being engage to CURRENT RELATIONSHIP free from responsibilities.

SO to state the unfairness of this story why is it that GIRL, like I said before ends up with this kind of life? and BOY being all so very happy with his adventures still end up with a happy ending or is it?? Even though I know these persons I am still wishing that KARMA will prevail, as it always does but I wonder will I be able to know if ever it occurs or will it actually occur? Maybe its GIRLS KARMA for actually choosing BOY over SIMPLE BOY, then if so why is it that it seems BOY does not experience something like this or maybe something has and I didn’t know about it. Grrrrr I really find life so unfair sometimes, but like many people say hardships are part of life it’s what forms us to be better people… does that mean that the not so nice people never experienced hardships….. haiz, life sometimes is so unfair to others! (actually I just wanted to make a point out of this with some of the things of being unfair the female gender have always been the effected one if you check some stories it’s always like this on the other side of things maybe I’m just envious of my gender and status since I’m one of the simple people who was born with the simplicity of life lives with the simple yet joyous perks it offers and yet cannot find satisfaction haiz)

If you are familiar with the Anime Samurai X, a certain villain said that only the strong will survive and the weak shall fall,I believe in this quote cause if you will look upon our society those with strength (money, power, confidence) are usually the people who need only to exert a normal amount of effort to survive while those who are weak (poor, oppressed, shy) need to exert the highest amount of effort just to stay within the bounds of life, yet still end up with what is expected of them. the lesson here if you know that you are in the level of the weak, learn to accept it because if you don’t others will keep on crushing your world, once you have accepted the fact about your position in life, make sure you exert the fullest effort to the brink of your destruction, because there are many who will exert their own effort and not notice your existence, because they are too busy soaring. and to make sure that you do not have any guilt if you have decided to soar, remain on the bounds of decency and respect to others so that if ever you hit anyone while soaring you will know that it’s just as it is, for those who does not want to exert that extra effort to avoid you.

and if other people have manage to crumble you down it’s in you choice to grab onto that accident and use it as strength to get back or end up falling onto nothingness, and continue to remorse for the deed that was done due to your own weakness that you have not yet accepted.

How Life is sometimes unfair

Just something to think for a while .The date is April 25 2011 for some reason I just started thinking negatively again as usual. The thoughts that occurred my mind while I was lounging was why is it that usually and not just sometimes the world is so unfair, sighting an example would be in both myth and reality people who grew up in fairytales and under the great and visible care of both parent and their environmental society would not really see this but for the unfortunate many this has already been a daily routine and has endured and managed to live with these negativities in harmony.. So just to start this story and I really want to make it short as possible, here are the thing that ran in my mind while I was lounging.

So let me start with this story.. this one actually happened in real life by the way I did not put names to the people in this story since I know that they will kill me if they knew about this. So le me just give the characters certain codes mainly

GIRL – the person who I do not know why with all the good things she does in life and all the kindness that she show’s other people why does this have to happen to her

BOY - the guy who is not really bad in nature yet I can explain his actions a bit still manages to do these things to GIRL even though he cares for her

FRIENDS – the group of people that has always been on GIRL’s side may it be good or bad they have always proven their worth to her

NEW GIRL – the poor girl that got mixed up on this due to the ever talented skills of BOY posing as a single guy

SIMPLE BOY – another person who is the same as GIRL yet hell why does this have to happen to him too

CURRENT RELATIONSHIP– BOY’s new relationship after breaking up with GIRL

So to begin with there was this couple a very nice GIRL independent strong willed and very caring quite attractive too, she may not be the perfect one because we all know that nobody is perfect. and of course BOY quite hilarious very thoughtful open minded and really confident.

So BOY and GIRL have a really good relationship, So it seems until BOY suddenly goes unfaithful or in my term abnormal…Ok so this is the part where I kinda find it unfair. first BOY has already divirginized GIRL and has manage to conquer other unsuspecting prey while still having his relationship, while GIRL being all so faithful to her so called beloved turns down many and I would say many admirable suitor’s the world really has it’s perks for other’s ahahaha so back to the story, at last for some considerable time finally!! GIRL actually suspects BOY is doing something fishy. GOD I wonder why it took so long for her to notice, anyway so GIRL confronts BOY and everything but of course BOY is skillful talented, one that we could say could pass up as a spy .BOY instantly makes up an alibi for every accusation given to him so thus save’s their relationship for now,

What BOY doesn’t know is that GIRL has quite very nosy FRIEND’s, and a good thing too, during that time of course. So FRIENDs feel pity for GIRL and devices amazing tactics to catch BOY and these FRIENDs are really the thinking ones, why would I say that? Because what is the usual response of friends that usually cause’s arguments within their friendship, that we can say is the usual mistake committed by everyone. Answer they go direct to the point and confronts their cheated friend which of course results in an argument, because girl loves boy and would not accept such a thing, though she would a bit think, and of course confront boy and cause an argument within their relationship but eventually with one simple explanation from boy everything Fades away horrifying yet true. So what does these very sly FRIENDs do to make sure that their side is heard by their cared GIRL friend! even though they know that their friend Girl would be devastated, shocked and of course heartbroken. they must bare the painful fact that they needed to hit their friend hard and I mean really hard.

Back to the tactic, FRIENDs amazingly manages to get BOY’s routine visits and adventures, so they carefully plan a trap of chance why do I say chance? cause they weren’t really sure if they will catch boy in the act, yet they still got on with it even though with just chance on their side hell what was there to lose. So what was the plan? First they never told GIRL that they knew about boy’s action. what they did was they followed and studied BOY’s every movement, hahaha by the way I don’t suggest that others to do this since It’s very time consuming and stressful and might I add that these people really need to get a hobby rather than doing this, but it was thoughtful though.

Anyway back to the story so FRIENDs devise this plan to go Gimmick within the vicinity of boy’s preying area! And of course they told GIRL that they were going someplace else, just to make sure that BOY is misinformed by GIRL when she asks for permission to go. So with BOY informed falsely and GIRL is ready to enjoy Gimmick with her best FRIENDs, The plan was set! So what to do after that, make a really amazing and planned excuse before the gimmick and accidentally go on a detour within BOY’s preying area. So what happened exactly, So FRIENDs went to pick up GIRL and after confirming that she manage to tell BOY their place of destination, FRIENDs suddenly make an excuse to go somewhere while travelling, if my memory is right I think the excuse was(oh no I forgot I had to pick up something for my mom it’s in my tita’s house) so with that said they changed their destination, and of course keeping GIRL busy so as not to inform her beloved BOY,So after doing the make believe errand of one of the FRIENDs, they again make an excuse to go somewhere else.

For close friends of course this is not unique, A sudden change of plan is better than a planned one. So they go to this place wherein one of the FRIENDs state that something exciting is within that area, but of course that was BOYS preying area so Friends and Girl enjoy their weekend bonding drinking at this really nice coffee shop everything is normal as it seems for GIRL of course but for FRIENDs they were eyeing for something else and of course with all that effort and planning bingo they see BOY with a NEW GIRL being all sweet and funny as he always is.

So friends act like they were shocked, but of course encourages GIRL not to go all warrior princess on them, they try to make excuses like maybe she’s just a close friend you know! Gahahaha but in truth they just wanted to make sure that GIRL is hit Hard, and I mean very HARD,

so just to see who NEW GIRL really is they agree to accompany GIRL and follow BOY, of course with the agreement that GIRL does not make any sudden moves while nothing is confirmed and with that said heaven suddenly gave way to FRIENDs devious plot, BOY goes to the one place he should have never gone! “ THE MOTEL” of course cornering him and depleting almost 80% of his excuses, why did I say 80% because even when caught in the act many people still manages to make amazing and well fabricated excuses for themselves. So with BOY entering “THE MOTEL” and kisses NEW GIRL in a very lustful and passionate manner BOY seals his fate and lowers his excuses to a mere 5%, so with that said of course what was to be expected of GIRL!

She unleashes her FURY within and transforms herself to an AMAZON with speed and strength and no logic and excuse binding her not even the plea and hold of her Friends(of course what did you expect would a very independent girl to do when her heart is shattered by the one she trust and cared for the most).

She lunges a surprise attack on NEW GIRL with UFC, Wrestle Mania, Spartan and all the action packed films that you could think of on GIRLS mind, she tries to reenact every move and attack she can remember, causing a very huge critical damage to NEW GIRL with the staff in amazement and Friends shock! No one managed to Subdue GIRL’s anger for 2 minutes, which actually felt longer for everyone especially for BOY who was trying to intervene between GIRL and NEW GIRL, with all damages done and GIRL emerges triumphant she focuses all her energy to BOY, who was trying to calm her down. Instead of attacking BOY which she knows was meaningless comparing of course on GIRLS size to BOY. She instinctively cries and starts shouting to BOY with all the strength her lungs can muster. With all the most obscene and scandalous language coming out of GIRL’s mouth, BOY could not do a thing to stop her! After a horrifying 15 or 25 minutes of gruesome battle (I’m not sure since they said it felt long but if you check the time it wasn’t) GIRL finally realizes the scandal that she has caused and felt ashamed yet relieved of what she has done GIRL runs away from the scene of the crime, of course FRIENDs cursed BOY for what he has done before chasing after GIRL, they have finally made GIRL realized the unfaithful and unjust actions of BOY to her or so they thought!