I Must Pull Myself Together

Again feeling so Low yet trying to pull myself together, for some reason the past is repeating itself unto me, the first depression that I've felt like this cause me to fall so low unto darkness that I'm currently fearing this! but the pain is not as like it was before I just hope I survive this one as well! this song from skillet is really in my mood right now. It's really helpful listening to this song right now.

V1
if I wasnt here tomorrow would anybody care
if my time was up Id wanna know
You were happy I was there

if I wasnt here tomorrow would anyone lose sleep
if I wasnt hard and hollow
Then maybe you would miss me

Pre
I know Im a mess and I wanna be someone
Someone that Id like better
I can never forget, so dont remind me of it forever

Chorus
What if I just pulled myself together
Would it matter at all
What if I just tried not to remember
Would it matter at all
All the chances that have passed me by
Would it matter if I gave it one more try
Would it matter at all

V2
if I wasnt here tomorrow would anybody care
Still stuck inside this sorrow
I got nothin and going nowhere

Post bridge
I know Im a mess and I wanna be someone
Someone that Id like better
Can you help me forget, dont wanna feel like this forever

Outro
If I left tomorrow would anybody care
Stuck in this sorrow
Going nowhere

Lord please do help me!

Eat all you can

Just last Wednesday I went with my best friend to assist her in an Errand after finishing the job It just so happens that there was an eat all you can buffet in front of us, so ironically even with my best strict diet (hehehe I'm evil)she was forced to join me for an all you can eat buffet. I've always like "eat all you can" you get the satisfaction of eating as much as you want(of course you still need to be careful of stomach problems). Things like this really makes me feel satisfied in life knowing how great and wonderful it is to live.

I really Like the mini potato salad that they offered(I thought they were quail eggs hahaha) forgot to take a picture of it though but anyway the spaghetti tastes OK not that sweet but leaves an enjoyable after taste plus you can add additional Parmesan cheese,the mushroom soup was great really creamy! and the pizza that they offered was thin crust so I sufficed my craving for pizza with chili sauce and salt ^_^, I think the restaurants name was chef Angelos @ magallanes I forgot the name of the mall the buffet actually has a schedule forgot it again(I really should remembers these things hehehe),If you like a mixed of pizza, pasta, and soup you can try it for the amount of P150 it's not really a bad deal.

Anime Cosplay

I have always enjoyed watching anime since I was a child and in my current age I still do, but of course now there are certain types of Anime that I like to watch, for some reason I became a bit choosy with the storyline,animation and of course what it was about. I have always been envious of people who have manage to actually Cosplay anime characters, I'm amazed with their interest of actually portraying certain characters that they like and I applaud their courage doing it in anime/game events, Seeing them enjoying what they're doing and not actually minding haters really impresses me.

and recently thanks to my oh! so very active best friend I have manage to take pictures together with a certain number of cosplayers and for me it was really fun, I regret being all shy cause it didn't allow me to pose properly with them, OH well maybe next time I'll be able to actually Cosplay as one of my favorite anime characters!(still hoping though).

Suicide Myths and Facts

I found another very useful Info from the book that I read.

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Myths and Facts about Suicide (my simplified version)

myth people who talk about suicide don't commit suicide.wrong
fact it's actually a cry for help from that person that most people misunderstand as a joke and consider it as one.

myth improvement in a suicidal person means the risk of suicide has passed.
fact improvement is sometimes a sign that a person is preparing the attempt.

myth Once a suicide risk always a suicide risk.
fact people who encounter suicide and survive or is intervened usually put the thought aside.

myth suicide is inherited.
fact It is not genetic (as if),It can occur to any family.

myth Suicide affects a certain class of people.
fact It can happen to anyone.

myth suicidal individuals are insane.
fact this is a bit true, In some cases, But suicide is done with careful reasoning and deliberate judgment as the book said.

myth suicidal individuals are fully intent on dying.
fact most suicide cases are undecided whether they want to live or die.

myth the motive for a particular suicide is clearly evident
fact one problem is not enough it takes a lot of them to trigger a suicide and it usually develops over time through a certain pattern.

another cute trivia did you know that alcoholism can be considered as slow suicide since it is a pattern to one's own self destruction.

I got this info on the same book that I read The Last Dance Encountering Death and Dying fifth edition Lynne Ann DeSpelder Albert lee Strickland.

Oh! by the way I considered in posting this, since I also recently saw some news regarding this subject. It's a bit of information so just to add a little bit of knowledge. Avoiding it one should know a bit about what causes it.

remember, careful what you say to others that might hurt, you may think your doing good but your not.just remember to remind them why you said that in the first place or better yet do it in a nice tone that you know would not hit that hard.

Suicide

I have been Itching in Bringing this certain subject for the past months, due to some incidents that occurred here. Suicide so why do people do it at first i was having a hard time thinking to blog this or not but then all of a sudden my sister asked assistance for her report which dwell on the subject. So because of this I was able to study a little more about the subject considering the help of the book my sister borrowed from her school so here is a little bit of information of what I got from the book.

So first Question in my Mind people often state that a person who committed suicide can be considered Insane(I thought they were too) wrong.from what I understood, a person capable of suicide still has the ability to think and properly act the cause of one's death, wherein a person of Insanity, just does it accidentally so mainly a high level of people who commit suicide are in not the so Insane mode when they did it only problems is why they did it if they where?

So I go to my Second Question Why they Did it.The usual point of view towards people who commit suicide is that 1. they have problem that they cannot escape 2. they couldn't handle life anymore.So what did I find out. well I have manage to make a bit of my own conclusion base on the book. The first 2 conclusion are a bit correct but in a simplified manner, they are both simple to understand yet still pose more question the more simplified explanation for the cause is 1.loosing one's belief that he/she matters to the world 2. nothing in this world matters anymore. So it just really means that people who tend to commit suicide either finds themselves worthless or finds the world or life they are currently in as worthless. so mainly, one way to prevent this from actually happening to us is to be pro active as much as possible.

by the way the book that I have manage to read is Titled The Last Dance Encountering Death and Dying fifth edition Lynne Ann DeSpelder & Albert Lee Strickland