I Must Pull Myself Together

Again feeling so Low yet trying to pull myself together, for some reason the past is repeating itself unto me, the first depression that I've felt like this cause me to fall so low unto darkness that I'm currently fearing this! but the pain is not as like it was before I just hope I survive this one as well! this song from skillet is really in my mood right now. It's really helpful listening to this song right now.

V1
if I wasnt here tomorrow would anybody care
if my time was up Id wanna know
You were happy I was there

if I wasnt here tomorrow would anyone lose sleep
if I wasnt hard and hollow
Then maybe you would miss me

Pre
I know Im a mess and I wanna be someone
Someone that Id like better
I can never forget, so dont remind me of it forever

Chorus
What if I just pulled myself together
Would it matter at all
What if I just tried not to remember
Would it matter at all
All the chances that have passed me by
Would it matter if I gave it one more try
Would it matter at all

V2
if I wasnt here tomorrow would anybody care
Still stuck inside this sorrow
I got nothin and going nowhere

Post bridge
I know Im a mess and I wanna be someone
Someone that Id like better
Can you help me forget, dont wanna feel like this forever

Outro
If I left tomorrow would anybody care
Stuck in this sorrow
Going nowhere

Lord please do help me!