Feeling so Doomed yet so Strong!

Recently I've been rejected again due to a certain condition yet I did not feel that bad like the usual me. maybe I have been improving my self esteem hahahaha I took these pictures when I really felt good about myself and to see the hard work that Ive earned from going to the gym I really consider gaining a bit a real achievement specially since Ive been so thin since highschool!

for that I really enjoy listening to this song right now! and I really feel like liberating myself right now! so I attached some of my pictures of me that I think show how good I feel about myself hahahaha

and of course listening to this song of skillet shows what I feel right now!! hahaha

Lyrics-Dead Inside

V1
To find this love of mine
Id walk through wind and fire
Forever and always

These hollow hands reach out
For you to touch me now
Forever and always

Chorus
Dead inside
My heart and soul flatlines
Put your mouth on mine
And bring me back to life
Dead inside
No other satisfies
My blood runs dry
Take my life
Save me from this death inside

V2
I cant escape this love
I want it the way it was
Forever and always
Dont you leave me here
Alone in all this fear
Forever and always

Bridge
I cant escape this love
I want it the way it was
You remind me of a time
When I felt alive